Thank you for coming to this page.

I'm really happy because you're here.

 

 

I do not know about you at all; what you are, what have happened in your past, what you think now, and why you are seeing this page.

 

 

But all what I know about you is that you're strugging now and you are in so tough condition that to think about ending your life.

 

 

I have a wish for you.

 

Please read this page till the end; please stay with me.

 

It only takes 5 minites.

 

Then you may be able to get something "tips" it may help you.

 

 

 

First of all,

 

 

Suicide does not come from weakness; it happens.

 

At that moment you thought "I cannot bear with my pain any more".

 

That is why the people who lost their lives by suicide; they thought they couldn't bear with the pain.

 

And it's sickness.

 

They say "90 per cent of the person who committed suicide have mental illnesses, such as depression".

 

 

Suicidal thoughts is from sickness, not from your weakness.

 

So you're not weak; you did well, and you're strong.

 

 

 

Now you may be blaming yourself.

 

 

"Why did I get a mental illness?"

 

"Why do I want to die?"

 

"Why can not I do anything like other people?"

 

 

If now you think so, that is not because you are weak.

 

If you feel that way now, it is not because you are bad.

 

 

No one is bad; at least you are not bad.

 

No one is to be blamed for; at least you are not to be blamed for.

 

 

As no one, you do not have to blame yourself.

 

 

Depression is not your choice; and it's not your fault.

 

Anxiety is not your choice; and it's not your fault.

 

It's not your fault.

 

 

You did well; you're enough.

 

You're not a burden.

 

Your life is worth living.

 

 

 

Thank you for reading so far. I'm so glad you're still here. 

 

 

Rather, you have been driven to such condition that you thought that it was "painful enough to die."

 

 

 

I do not know whether the pain is from.

 

You held something big by only yourself.

 

 

 

It is a very painful thing to hold by yourself alone.

 

 

 

I used to be the previous one.

 

I was suffering alone; I couldn't confess my painful past, and in December 2017, I attempted suicide.

 

I have depression and seismophobia, and taphophobia.

 

So I think "if only I could die, I would go to safest place without fear of it; I finally will be free from the fear" ...

 

 

Maybe you think this way; "If only I could die, I finally be free from my suffering/ painful disease/ extreme fear... and so on.

 

 

So, please do not hold you alone the pain.

 

Please talk to someone you trust.

 

 

... but maybe you think, "I can't trust anybody, and I have nobody to rely on...".

 

or you think, "If I have had someone to talk to, I would do it before".

 

 

 

Many people say "Please talk to trustworthy people" or "It's okay to ask help".

 

 

You may have heard that word.

 

 

 

You're still here! I'm so proud of you and it's my preasure.

 

Thank you!

 

 

But I know, because I was suicidal last year, that is a very difficult thing.

 

 

Because you may fear about what to do if you do not understand and reject you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

By the way, I want to ask the question; what is your hobby?

 

 

What do you think is "enjoyable while doing this"?

 

 

Maybe you think it's no use or something like that.

 

 

But please, close your eyes and think twice.

 

 

 

 

Did you think about it?

 

 

 

 

 

By the way, in my case it is "listening to music" and "reading a book".

 

 

 

 

 

Here I will introduce the words Italian friends said, when I tried to commit suicide.

 

 

 

"You love the song of Laura Pausini (* an Italian singer; she is so amazing!!) , do not you?" Then you should go to the concert at least once before you die.

 

 

You love to read books, are not you? Then, you should write your own book at least once ,before you die.

 

 

It's okay, you are fine. You're going to be okay.

 

 

You should change your wounds of your heart into art.

 

You should change your fear into art.

 

 

 

You're going to be okay, because you are a strong person. "

 

 

 

I thought "only one word could save my life" then, and I want you to feel this way, I know it's difficult, but I believe you can survive this day/night.

 

 

 

I do not know if I can confort you from this word.

 

 

 

 

And it is not disgraceful to confess your feelings to those who want to confess.

 

 

 

Because having a mental illness is not your weakness.

 

 

 

It's sickness.

 

 

And surely it will be cured.

 

 

The pain doesn't last forever.

 

 

 

Your suffering is temporary.

 

 

But your strength is permanent.

 

 

 

 

If you are fighting in solitude, I have something to say to you.

 

 

You are never fighting alone.

 

 

 

Why do not you look for friends on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram etc?

 

 

If you can speak to a trustworthy person, why do not you talk?

 

 

 

If that is impossible, will not you make your pain a poem, a novel, or a picture?

  

 

To fight alone is too much pain, maybe you know.

 

 

It is never embarrassing to confess what you think.

 

 

Why do not you talk to someone or something...?

 

 

I know it's difficult; but you can do it!

 

And doing these things will be a help for you!!